I hate that I know I'm human. I know physically, I am and will always be human, it feels so invalidating.
I have Autism, PTSD with severe trauma symptoms, and Depersonization/Derealization Disorder, and have been told that some of this can give me a skewed sense of identity.
I've never felt human, I've...I hate that I know I'm human. I know physically, I am and will always be human, it feels so invalidating.
I have Autism, PTSD with severe trauma symptoms, and Depersonization/Derealization Disorder, and have been told that some of this can give me a skewed sense of identity.
I've never felt human, I've always felt deeply like I was something else, and maybe this is why? But I don't like it. Saying I'm nothuman and saying the stuff on here that I've been feeling for ages has been the most releasing thing I have ever felt, and it's acted as a coping mechanism. I seriously believe if I had never found this website I wouldn't be alive, I've felt so alone about this for so long and right before I found this community I had been at my lowest point and had been actively idealizing suicide. However finding a place where I knew I wasn't the only one who felt nothuman saved my life. Despite this I think I should go.
My initial plan was to continue to act the same around those around me and to place my true feelings about stuff I couldn't talk about normally to those around me, the feeling nothuman. However I started to grow arrogant the more I encouraged it. The more I encouraged my feeling of feeling more than human and more worthy than human the more egocentric and arrogant I had become.
I don't wish to be that.
I don't blame the website or the community for making me this way, I entirely blame myself, I shouldn't have gone to an extreme.
I may come by for a little bit every once in a while, however I don't plan on continuing to be an active member as I don't want a problem like that to arise again, maybe one day I'll have the mental maturity to not let that happen again.
I care about all of you, you all matter, and you are all valid, I wish for you to all have an amazing time as the many nothumans you are, I hope one day you'll be able to express your true inner nothuman to those around you.
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My apologizes for not being as active today as I have been recently. Unfortunately, I am stuck in a human body and I have been very tired, very exhausted.
It's exhausting having to be around humans all day, and let alone ones you don't particularly like.
Humans tend to drain me, and I spend the...My apologizes for not being as active today as I have been recently. Unfortunately, I am stuck in a human body and I have been very tired, very exhausted.
It's exhausting having to be around humans all day, and let alone ones you don't particularly like.
Humans tend to drain me, and I spend the majority of my day having to conform to their formalities when I'm around them and can really only be myself when I'm on my own.
Humans are very un-empathetic I've come to notice. I've known that I have a much more empathy than humans, however I never noticed how heartless humans truly are. It almost makes me shamed to have created them. Watching them destroy everything around them is a part of it, but it's not what I mean. I'm talking about how they treat other people in particular, not caring about others' needs just as much as their own. You will rarely, if ever, see a human give their essential resources to someone who needs it but it unable to obtain it. The lack of selflessness and altruism in humans is astounding and irritating. I just would like everybody to treat everyone like they matter not only because they do, but because they genuinely care about people, which is the idea that humans are lacking.
I suppose this is a fairly useless rant to go on, however it is something I have continuously thought about during the course of today.
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I couldn't go into depth as to why I believed I had a connection to the Gods, so I shall do that now that I have the opportunity to do so.
The Gods have shown to be Mortal, take Balder dying to the Mistletoe, and in the prophecy Odin and Thor dying. However, despite all of them being Mortals they have...I couldn't go into depth as to why I believed I had a connection to the Gods, so I shall do that now that I have the opportunity to do so.
The Gods have shown to be Mortal, take Balder dying to the Mistletoe, and in the prophecy Odin and Thor dying. However, despite all of them being Mortals they have shown to have extensive knowledge and power compared to their human counterparts. I know I hold this same difference. I know I have more knowledge and power than humans ever could imagine, however I am unable to "unlock" all of it while I'm alive, or here on Earth. My connection to them also goes beyond these to just a general feeling that I am, in fact, one of them. It's a feeling beyond even my own comprehension, it's very strong.
Another difference I have would be this flesh suit of mine, isn't mine. I don't belong in it, this isn't me. The person you see when you see "me" isn't me. It is simply a flesh suit, it is simply my vehicle for this life time.
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I feel a strong connection to the Gods. I have no belief in them, however I feel a strong connection to them, as if I am one of them in a way.

Maybe I am the universe herself, or perhaps just a fragment of her.

I am not quite sure as to if I created the Earth or if I just have the ability to control certain aspects of her, however I do know that me and the Earth are connected in some way, and that we know each other better than humans ever could.

I don't understand how humans can act so cruelly. I gave them this Earth and their bodies and minds and they used it to hurt everything around them. I gave them the vibrant blues, greens, pinks of the world around them and they destroy it beyond their own need. I gave them what they need and they...I don't understand how humans can act so cruelly. I gave them this Earth and their bodies and minds and they used it to hurt everything around them. I gave them the vibrant blues, greens, pinks of the world around them and they destroy it beyond their own need. I gave them what they need and they pollute it, and destroy it, they take more than what they need as individuals. They destroy each other and themselves, they take advantage of everything I've given them. They don't deserve this world yet I continue to let them roam the planet as they destroy everything I have provided to them. Show more

Hello, I'm new here. I am hoping to share similar thoughts, feelings, and hopefully make friends.