Searching....always searching.....eventually I end up here

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It came again last night. I can't go too much into detail because it terrifies me. But I felt it, tasted it,d me. and smelled it. It took a Familiar form but I knew it was not not the person it was pretending to be. My ribcage still hurts from where it grabbed me, and that metallic taste still...It came again last night. I can't go too much into detail because it terrifies me. But I felt it, tasted it,d me. and smelled it. It took a Familiar form but I knew it was not not the person it was pretending to be. My ribcage still hurts from where it grabbed me, and that metallic taste still lingers in my mouth from where it forcibly kissed me....I am begging Pease, please, anyone, if you are out there and can help, please find me here. This is real ! I am afraid...I know its here, somewhere, my dog Genesis growls everytime it's near. .. Show more

3rd night now, im in a pain. My skin is on fire, my bones feel like they are being bent! .y eyes go black and I feel like I'm changing! Wtf is wrong with me???

Searching for the one I'm suppose to find. The one who has followed me my entire life.Always in the background and in the shadows
Waiting, and watching. He calls out to me most nights. I'm too afraid to go out to him. The voices are louder and clearer these days. Why me ? Why follo me? I'm no one...Searching for the one I'm suppose to find. The one who has followed me my entire life.Always in the background and in the shadows
Waiting, and watching. He calls out to me most nights. I'm too afraid to go out to him. The voices are louder and clearer these days. Why me ? Why follo me? I'm no one special. Are they out to hurt me? Or am I crazy? I'm getting older and growing tired. Please ... I need to know...are they real? All my life I've been told I was crazy... ijust need to know I'm not. There has to be a reason for all of this. I am asking if anyone out there can help me find the truth about me..please...
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All my life, i was told i was crazy. Crazy because i see things others don't. And hear things others can't. This has caused me a great deal of pain in my life. Forced to go to church when i was younger and sit through an exorcism while being told i was evil and probably possessed by demons was...All my life, i was told i was crazy. Crazy because i see things others don't. And hear things others can't. This has caused me a great deal of pain in my life. Forced to go to church when i was younger and sit through an exorcism while being told i was evil and probably possessed by demons was only the beginning for me. My grandmother was a witch who practiced the craft of dark rituals was part of a very powerful coven. Before she passed her final words were to my mother telling her that i was to be watched over due to fact that i had something evil inside me that somehow made me special. I was dragged back and forth between priests, witchdoctors, curanderos, and shamans, and psychiatrists. On and off different medications and herbal remedies. My life was chaotic. I tried to be normal but the truth is, i wasn't. In and out of failed relationships and drug and alcohol abuse, I gave birth to three sons. I failed as a mother. In time , i lost them. Alone and misunderstood, i found myself gravitating towards characters just as strange as i was. We were all misfits and social outcasts society deemed unworthy. Its taken me a long time to come to terms and accept myself as i am. Yes, i am crazy and yes there is a darkness that resides within me. But trying to control it was futile. So instead, i give in to my dark side every now and then, its the only way to manage it. Because of this, i don't socialize or go out much anymore. I live in a rural area far from the city. My companion is another poor unfortunate insane soul who has latched himself to me and shares my dismal existence. At times, I am cruel, and others I am kind. My moods constantly change. My days just come and go. I lose track of the date and time easily. I stay up to date through social media outlets and lots of YouTube videos. Always wondering, if death will be my release or will it be my ascension to my true form. Whatever my future brings, I will continue to embrace my gifts and call out those who call out to me. I'm here, I'm ready, I want to go home..... Show more

. It happened again. Caught in the space between awake and sleep. I see and feel them. Its happening more frequently now. Something is here, my dog Coco is aware of its presence. She's my protector as I sleep. Its through her that I know when it's near. So tired...

So tired never fitting in tired constantly hearing at my door and window asking me to come out side I want to go to them I'm afraid of what's out there. I have no real connections to anyone anymore isolating myself practically everyone no one understands no one cares I am alone. They say I don't...So tired never fitting in tired constantly hearing at my door and window asking me to come out side I want to go to them I'm afraid of what's out there. I have no real connections to anyone anymore isolating myself practically everyone no one understands no one cares I am alone. They say I don't need to be alone they say they want me. I'm afraid too afraid what awaits me out there someone please help Show more