why are humans treated specially by my creator? maybe i don't see them as special, because they aren't. where is MY grace? MY love?. i felt stuck in HELL, all the while those parasites got kindness. i almost enjoy seeing their downfall now, but i only have so much time here. when will i be loved?

does anyone feel like they've forgotten most of their life? since while 'living' was eons or decades ago?